The built up exhaustion, overstimulation, constant demands on my attention and energy, would make me so frustrated that it would build in my body until it sometimes came out in ways I did not feel proud of.
What was really hard for me at first was I love my children deeply, and the seasons where I felt like I was constantly just trying to hold myself together and get through the day felt never-ending.
I started asking myself bigger questions about what was actually happening inside me during those moments,and this is how I learned to discover what it would take to feel steady again.
Over time, through a lot of reflection, learning, and mothering 2 under the age of 3, I began to understand my emotional patterns, my nervous system, and the ways I could nurture and care for myself so the capacity to show up for my kids the way I wanted to was sustained.
The way I’m experiencing motherhood now is still full of the same chaos that comes with raising children, but I experience it very differently.
I feel grounded inside my days, move through frustration and overwhelm without it taking over my entire nervous system or out on my kids, and I genuinely enjoy the experience of being a mom in a way that once felt out of reach.
The reason I am so passionate about this work is because I know how many mothers are quietly carrying the same exhaustion, guilt, and overwhelm that I once felt.
Helping other moms understand themselves, refill their cup so their energy has bandwidth, and their experience of motherhood is more emotionally regulated for the whole family.
Mothers loving motherhood is something that matters deeply to me.
Motherhood and raising your kids should not feel like something you are constantly trying to survive or escape, it should feel like you are being the mother you always wanted to be.