This is the life you wanted, and this season feels precious to you.

AT THE SAME TIME it is not selfish to want support in becoming consistently responsive, nor unrealistic to want to feel energized instead of constantly depleted.

Just like how it is not too much to want to experience your motherhood with more presence, steadiness, and enjoyment.

The pressure you are under to do everything well while having almost no real support for your own nervous system is enormous, so the fact that you are looking for a way to care for yourself inside motherhood does not mean something is wrong with you.

It means you are paying attention.